DAY 20 - The one who broke your heart the hardest.
my first boyfriend. ever since the fight we had and the break-up and the post-breakup fights we had, i’ve managed to develop insomnia, become insanely paranoid and anal, and i have matured like crazy. all these things are the main things that changed, of course alot of other things changed, but i’d rather not go into depth about it.
I thought about life, my life, the embarrassments, the little coincidences, the shadows of alarm clocks on bedside tables, I thought about my small victories and everything I’ve seen destroyed. I’d swum through mink coast on my parents’ bed while they hosted downstairs, I’d lost the only person…
DAY 19 - Someone who pesters your mind, good or bad.
i know if you read this you will know who you are.. i still don’t know if it’s good that you pester mind, or if it’s bad. i can never stop thinking about you now, which i guess is bad. but i like it, because it reminds me of you all the time, and keeps reminding me how much i still love you and how i will wait for the right time, and wait for you to love me back again. and once i have you in my arms, i swear to god that i will never stop loving you and i will never want to let go of you. you will be my world, and hopefully i’ll be yours.
DAY 18(yesterday) - The person that you wish you could be.
i wish i could be the person that you want. the person that you need, because they are perfect for you. i want to be the person that you think about all the time. i ish i could be the person you loved.
“it’s gonna take a long time to love, it’s gonna take alot to hold on, it’s gonna be a long way to happy, left in the pieces that you broke me into, torn apart but now i’ve got to keep on rolling like a stone, cause it’s gonna be a long long way to happy..”—Long Way To Happy - Pink